A new year, a new beginning

a-new-year-a-new-beginning-1So here we are in a new year. Do you see the new year as a new beginning? I know there’s always tons of chatter about resolutions and starting fresh, and sometimes I don’t buy into it, but usually it does feel good to see the year as a whole new beginning. Yeah, it’s pretty arbitrary, but, there’s something about seeing it as a fresh start that makes going through another year feel possible. It gives you motivation to go forward without feeling destined to repeat the year before.

So every year we do try to come up with little things to keep in mind through the year ahead, maybe goals, maybe hopes or dreams, or maybe just little mantras to keep our focus on an aspect of personal growth that has risen to the surface. This year I’m repeating these four words:securedownload-2 It’s time for me to stop rushing around, missing all that’s happening around me. Time to drive slower, to walk slower, to see the world for what it is each day and to take it in with awe. And it’s time for me to lose control, not in the go crazy and have no inhibitions sense, but in the sense of letting go of my control over every situation, letting go of perfection, giving the reigns to others (at least sometimes) and trusting in the bigger plans out there for me, for us.

So in the spirit of losing control, one of our favorite things over the holiday was a trip we took to Sky Zone with a bunch of friends. It’s a huge gym full of trampolines. There are even trampolines angled upright, so you can literally bounce off the walls. We jumped, we played jumping dodgeball, we jumped and flipped into a giant pile of foam blocks, and we jumped some more. And we couldn’t wipe those giddy, silly, gigantic smiles off our faces all night. It was that. much. fun.a-new-year-a-new-beginning Continue Reading →

Overwhelmed

overwhelmed-4Well, Happy New Year! We are back. Finally. After quite a long absence. We hope you didn’t completely give up on us. We are still here, still excited to tell our stories as we travel about and try to make a life out of what we love. We promise to keep up the posts much more frequently now.

So where did we leave off? Somewhere around here, am I right? overwhelmed-1We were on Easter Island working on production for our documentary. And then we weren’t. Sometimes airplane travel just blows my mind, because not more than a day after having that above as our view, we were staring out the window at this. overwhelmed-2Talk about contrast, and don’t get me started on lack of color. Anyone who travels to warmer climes during winter in Minnesota knows what we are talking about. That sinking feeling you get when you look out your window and realize the beaches have become snow and the long winter is still here, dragging on, and there’s no longer anywhere to hide. Continue Reading →

Our Garden, Year 1: a recap

Gardening-Year1-a-recap-1This summer we planted our very first garden. And we grew things. And we ate them. It was so exciting.

Here’s a little re-cap of how it went, what we learned and what we might do differently next year. We by no means are master gardeners. We (or really I) can keep houseplants and herbs alive inside like nobody’s business, but when it comes to outdoor gardening, other than begrudgingly helping stick seeds in the ground in my parents’ garden growing up, I had zero experience. Ta’u had learned some gardening skills back in Binghamton helping out with a local church garden, but basically this was our first time doing it all ourselves and with, well at least an 80% interest in it, if not for the love of planting, at least for the potential outcome of free (mostly), all natural, locally grown food. I say 80% interest because we could have invested a lot more time in the planning, caring for and harvesting, but the lesson learned is, even with only 80% input of time/energy, you still get a lot of great fresh food. Sure it could have been better…we could have maximized space more or replanted a few times with early and then late season crops, but in general, it was a great first try. Gardening-Year1-a-recap-2We pulled out our Organic Gardening Encyclopedia, given to Ta’u when he was in his Binghamton gardening phase, and looked around for ideas of what to plant, when, and how to space it. We basically picked the things we buy the most at the farmer’s market, and the things we thought would be easy-ish to grow. We decided to try more of a 1’x1′ square layout versus rows of plants to maximize the 10’x4′ plot we had. And we tried to plan out where to put things based on which side of the garden would get the most sun…..We planted the largest plants (tomatoes) on the eastern side, and plants that would grow up the trellis (cucumbers) along the north side so that they wouldn’t block the stronger southwestern sun from the rest of the garden [File that under things you don’t have to think so much about when you live on an island near the equator (ahem, Hawaii)]. Most of the seeds themselves were gifted to us by our landlord, a master gardener for real, so we spent 0 dollars on seeds. Yippee. Although, I have since learned not all seeds are created equal, and they actually expire, and there are things such as organic seeds, and sometimes you can save seeds from your plants for the next year….so as I said, still lots to learn. But for this year, free seeds got us pretty darn far. Continue Reading →

Moving between here and there

moving-between-here-and-there-8Coming and going is always a strange phenomenon for me. You’d think after the amount of upheaval and change that has permeated my life from the very beginning that I would be a pro at smoothly moving through change. And perhaps on the outside it appears that way….but moving from a life that you are used to, comfortable in, to another life, another home, another place, always comes with the same feelings of panic and nostalgia and sadness and loss. I call it a change-attack instead of a panic attack…it’s a feeling so specific to changing my environment and the people around me that I feel like it deserves it’s own name. The feeling of panic usually hits first as a shock rushing through my body upon waking up, often from a nap (because everyone needs a nap after a big trip, right?). moving-between-here-and-there-2I open my eyes and in those first few moments of waking, when the world doesn’t quite feel stable again yet, when you still aren’t quite sure if you are really here, if everything around you is reality or still a dream, that’s when the feelings of nostalgia and sadness set in. I feel a tremendous longing for where I was and no longer am. Suddenly everything around me feels so wrong. Even if I’m in the most comfortable, familiar place — a place I missed terribly and had been begging to return to, I still get that feeling of loss and sadness for wherever I’d been.

Some of what I’m missing about my time on Easter Island…

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the view we love so much from our “home” on Easter Island

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enjoying “once” on the lanai

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a parking lot just for watching the waves…where one stops for a break on a lazy drive home

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the town “beach”

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enjoying guava ice cream after a day in the field

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renovations of the soccer field….prepping for artificial turf

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a stare down between car and cow….an everyday occurrence on the road

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gorgeous sunsets

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a new decorative rock wall on the newest addition to the family hotel

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Abuelita’s bucket cilantro garden

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take-out ceviche from Hetu’u

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waiting to board the plane….of to another home

So I’ve come to realize I just need to allow myself time to move through that stage of transition from one place to another — that place of sadness and loss for the daily familiarity of what was. I have to let myself trust that the comfort of an everyday routine with the people I see on a daily basis and with the places I inhabit, will return in this new location….and it always does. Within only a few days, where I was becomes a distant memory. Until I travel again, and the whole process starts anew.

Has anyone else ever felt something like that? It’s such a hard feeling to put into words.moving-between-here-and-there-6

 

Moving on

MovingOn-2There’s been a mass exodus out of Minnesota going on lately. A disturbing number of our close family and friends have moved (or are about to move) out of state this year. Helping all of them pack up their trucks and move out makes me nostalgic for past moves of our own. I’m worried I’m catching a bit of a moving bug. We tend to get antsy after 2-3 years and decide we need to move, you know, just to keep life interesting, and we are quickly approaching that timeline here in Minnesota. But then I remember how fun it really is (i.e. not that much fun) and I can’t help but be happy we don’t have any immediate moving plans of our own.

Here’s a glimpse into our move back to Minnesota from New York. If there’s anything I’m good at, it’s making sure we’ve filled every teeny tiny space in a moving truck. I can’t stand unused space forcing you to leave behind something you love. And this, I realize now, is probably why we have way too much stuff.

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P.S. Most people seem to be smarter than this, but if you are the type to shrug off advice and forge ahead with thoughts of “I can do anything!”, I’m warning you, as a fellow stubborn overachiever: Don’t move in the winter. We had 3-foot snow banks to welcome us home to Minnesota and carrying boxes and furniture along a skinny little path in the freezing cold is not exactly a good time. Although we sure tried to pretend it was fun (ok it was a little….you gotta find the adventure and humor in crazy situations like these). But let me tell you, nobody wants to help you with that. You will, most definitely, be all on your own. But, then again, if you gotta move, you gotta move, and you can do anything! So just do it! You will survive, just like we did.

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This state sure won’t be the same without those who’ve left, but we wish you all the very best in your new adventures!